"The reason why we want to remember an image varies: Because we simply 'love it', or dislike it so intensely that it becomes compulsive, or because it has made us realize something about ourselves, or has brought about some slight change in us. Perhaps the reader can recall some image after seeing of which has never been quite the same."

Friday, November 19, 2010

I'll miss you more than you'll ever know...

I'm blogging the kids are at school, and for the first time since September 24th, the day of my Dad's surgery, I don't have anywhere to go to visit him...He's gone.  He's gone now, & I have no where to go to see him.  He passed on Monday November 15th, peacefully in his sleep.  He had cancer and he just never recovered.  He tried so hard, but I could see him slowly slipping away with each week that went by.  I feel so empty inside right now.  There is so much in my soul that I can credit him for, he was truly my Kindred Spirit.  & I'm going to miss him more than words can express.  He gave me my love for music, my love for drawing, my love for animals, my love for photography.  It was the simple things in life that I can appreciate and know that he would always relate to.  There was never a pretty flower or a tall tree that he would pass up and not notice. All that is good and pure in me came from him, it's that feeling in my heart that tells me so.  He was such a unique, quiet man with the capacity to love more than I've ever seen in a person.  He cherished his grand kids and spoke of my mom as if she were an angel.  & during his last days, when he couldn't even speak, lay there staring at my mom and me as if he was laying his eyes on us for the last time.  The day before he passed, he saw my Jason with a tear in his eye and I knew then this was the last time we would see his precious brown eyes.

Although I'll miss him terribly, each time I look at my kids I will think of him & know that he will live each day through them. Rest in peace sweet Daddy.



  1. I'm so sorry for you loss, it's never easy to lose a loved one... Such a lovely tribute.
    Man, I'm crying and I've got to leave the house!

  2. This post is such a beautiful tribute to a wonderful man. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's clear your father was an incredible person who left an amazing legacy with his family. Sending you big, warm thoughts right now.

  3. I am so sorry. Great tribute to your dad. Sending you hugs.

  4. My thoughts are with you & your family.

  5. What a wonderful way to remember your dad! I'm crying for you (I lost my brother to cancer in March, 2010, so I can empathize) but smiling through my tears. Thank you for sharing this! Hugs!